#I just wish he would understand that I can’t feed him all the time
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fernspirals · 2 years ago
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Having a weird time. My roommate expects everything to be communal but I pay for most of the groceries and I can’t financially support his eating habits
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After reading SOTR, it was so refreshing and heartbreaking to read from the point of view of a character who loves so openly. Haymitch bleeds love everywhere he goes; not just for the obvious people like Lenore Dove, or Sid and Ma, but for everyone.
His complete and utter adoration of Lenore Dove? How her flaws, her recklessness and impulsiveness just makes him love her all the more. How he can’t always keep up with her, but he doesn’t resent her for it, just tries his best to and loves her when he can’t understand. The contrast between Snow wanting to control Lucy Gray, even going so far as to say that he wishes she was back in the Arena so he could know where she was, and Haymitch wanting nothing more for Lenore Dove than to be free, even trying to tell Lenore Dove to move on from him when he dies in the Arena.
The way Haymitch expresses such adoration for Hattie, how he admires her hard work and hugs her when she gives him his birthday gift. How he tries to protect her during the Interviews.
Haymitch’s love for his family; how he finds them annoying sometimes, but he loves them. He ruffles Sid’s hair and takes on the role of his father, how he lets Sid drag him out on a clear night to look up at the stars. He hugs his Ma and speaks of her with admiration for her work, even as he’s just as annoyed by her work ethic.
Louella McCoy, who crushed on Haymitch for a week, and it just endeared her to him, made him fiercely protective of her. He never looked down on her for being childish, and he did everything in his power to get justice for her.
Lou Lou, whom he despised at first, only to love her anyways. He didn’t even know her real name, didn’t know anything about her except that she was from Eleven and that she was recording what they were saying, but he loved her anyways because he can’t help it. It spills out of him. He protected her and tried to make her death quick, tried to get justice for what happened to her just as much as he did Louella.
Wyatt, Maysilee, and Effie are my favorite examples of how Haymitch sees the flaws in people, but loves them anyways, embraces them even. Wyatt Callow, who he started by resenting him for his father’s gambling practices, only to grow to love Wyatt for his quick wit, then to mourn him when he was killed on the first day. Maysilee Donner who was spoiled and mean in his eyes, yet he could still see her rebellious and determined nature, her kindness for the other Tributes as she wove their tokens, and he held her hand as she died, cementing her in his mind as his sister. Effie Trinket, who despite her Capitol upbringing, despite her parroting Capitol propaganda lines, Haymitch can’t help but notice her empathy and kindness, and she becomes the only one who can seem to care for him after his Games.
Every single Tribute that he adopted as his own, his flock of doves. He never once thought about winning over any of them, choosing instead to do everything in his power to protect them. He kept the fire running and made nightlights for the young Tributes who feared the dark. He tried to play it cool when meeting with Amphert, but when Amphert hugs him, he just drops the act and hugs him right back. He stayed with Wellie and helped to feed her the best he could, reassuring her the whole time and strategizing how he was going to make her the Victor. He blamed himself for every one of their deaths.
Fuck, even the rabbits in the Arena he becomes fond of. He viewed them as allies and felt guilty when he had to use them to determine what was poisoned.
Haymitch Abernathy loves hard and fast. And that’s what Snow took; his ability to love. He trapped Haymitch into the rascal persona he had put on for the Games. The message he sent with Lenore Dove and Ma and Sid and every single Tribute who Haymitch couldn’t save, was that he would kill anyone Haymitch loved. So he drove people away from him. Forced distance between him and the District Twelve tributes. I think that didn’t even stop him from loving them too, only to watch them killed in the Arena. A yearly reminder of that message.
I hope after the revolution, Haymitch felt free to love without fear again.
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bunni-v1 · 2 months ago
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Wriothesley SFW & NSFW Headcannons
🍓The offical Bunni Wrio headcannons. Long time coming for me and my husband. I really wish I had the money (that also doesn't need to go into me feeding myself for the next four months) to commission an artist to draw him and my OC together. I'm so regular and normal about him. Anyway, please enjoy my thoughts. I'm a humble loser.
TW: NSFW; Rough Sex; Choking mentioned
Info: Wriothesley x Reader; NSFW below the cut; gn!reader (no explicit body parts or pronouns used); use of "walls" to refer to sexual organs
Word Count: 5.5k
-Wriothesley is both incredibly complex and very simple at the same time, and he doesn’t care if anyone but him understands that fact. He doesn’t need to be understood by anyone else, though he does appreciate it when his friends go out of their way to accommodate him.
-Quite honestly, there are only two people in Teyvat who understand the way he ticks, and he only regularly interacts with one of them. Part of this is honestly because he can’t be bothered to deepen most relationships when he’s so isolated from other people, and a more… honest and vulnerable part of him knows that he doesn’t really enjoy being known.
-His childhood being stripped from him did a number on his ability to trust, as it would any other person. He’s built up a nice, tall, icy wall between himself and most others. He’s not unreachable, of course, but most people don’t even try to get to know him when they see how guarded he is. 
-Again, he doesn’t mind it. He likes the freedom it gives him, and it means he doesn’t have to worry about complicated relationships. He has enough difficulties on his plate from running the fortress in the first place, there’s no need to have any extra stressors.
-Needless to say, romance isn’t something on his mind. At all. In fact, he’s likely never had any kind of romantic relationship. He never had the chance to have one, and he naturally assumes that it’s not his thing. 
-Not to say that he’s never felt anything toward anyone, he’s human, he just never acts on it. He can also easily clock when someone is attracted to him, and makes a mental note to shut them down as quickly and efficiently as possible. If he can’t, he just avoids them. 
-It’s not a fear of romance, nor a disinterest in it, Wriothesley just cannot be bothered. While yes, he has plenty of free time around the fortress, he also lives there. It would be cruel to any potential partner on the surface for him to accept their advances, and anyone in the fortress was either his employee or a prisoner, and excuse him for not wanting that kind of power dynamic in his life.
-Wriothesley was content being single for the rest of his life, down under the sea in his quiet office with no one to bother him. Then you come into his life.
-Sent down to the fortress from Neuivilette after Sigewinne expressed worry about him overworking himself. She tended to mother him a little too much, and Neuivillette listened to her faithfully every time she worried about him. 
-It wouldn’t be much of an issue… If Wriothesley didn’t find himself so stumped on what to give you to work on. He had a good routine that he was used to, and it got things done efficiently, so there wasn’t really anything for you to do. But when you look at him with those pretty eyes, he can’t help but find some excuse to keep you in the office with him just a little longer.
-He doesn’t immediately fall for you, of course. It’s more like a slow flutter down a thousand-foot cavern, unsure of what was at the bottom, but certain that he was falling.
-It just starts as a business, of course. You were technically his superior, as a direct aide of Neuivillette, he had to answer to you more than you did to him. You never really treated it like that, though. You were witty and playful, matching his quick tongue with your own smart jabs. It was nice to have someone on the same wavelength, and this naturally led to more friendly conversations about things outside of work.
-You start spending time with him far longer than you need to, way after either of you has finished your duties for the day, and it doesn’t take a genius to tell what's going on. There’s just one problem… Wriothesley can be a bit… dense when it comes to actual romantic tension.
-He isn’t stupid, of course, he can tell that there’s something there… but he second-guesses himself. He just doesn’t believe that you could possibly be genuinely interested in him; he brushes off the flirting, acts like he doesn’t notice the tension, and eventually, you’re called back to the surface without anything happening.
-It’s easy to shrug off everything for him, chalking it up to circumstances and nothing more. He can’t deny how it stings a little that you could easily act like it never happened, not receiving any letters sucks, but he can’t blame you. Again, he doesn’t believe he’s built for romance.
-He thinks he’s handling the whole thing fine, but Sigewinne clocks him faster than he can say his own name. She points out that within a week that he seems mopey, and that if he misses you so much, he should just visit or send a letter. Of course, he doesn’t, because that requires a level of vulnerability he admits he just doesn’t have in him yet.
-Luckily, he doesn’t need to take that first step. Pleasantly surprised when you make an unannounced visit to his office, only about a month after you initially left. He thinks that maybe Neuivilette had sent you back, but you’re not dressed like you normally would be for a shift with him. (You look very good in your casual clothes, which fluster him quite a bit more than he’s willing to admit aloud.)
-No, you hadn’t come for work or anything like that, you had – with flushed cheeks and eyes dodging his – come just to see him. You admit you had missed your chats, and thought that maybe he might’ve as well. Hoped that he had. And oh, you have no idea what it does to his heart.
-He’s not a musician, but his heart broke out into a symphony that thrummed through his whole body. 
-From there, you become a regular part of his week, coming down to his office at the same time once, then twice, then nearly every day in a week. He finds himself sulking when you can’t make your regular meetings, and feels as if he is on cloud nine when he sees you. He never expected himself to be such a hopeless sap, but he supposes those romance novels weren’t exactly wrong about how much love can change someone.
-Talks over tea turn into gentle, flirty touches. Not so subtle hints at something more, but neither of you is really pushing any further. It’s a very slow build of confidence for Wriothesley, and every interaction reassures him of your shared feelings. It gives him confidence to take the next step, to go a little further, to finally put a label on things instead of pretending nothing's there.
-It’s cute how he goes about it, too. Normally, you’re the one to come down to him after you’re done with work, but instead, he greets you in the lobby of the Palais de Mermonia. He’s got a bouquet of your favorite flowers and the biggest grin on his face – he even cleaned up a bit! 
-It makes you feel silly seeing him all dolled up when you’re still in your work clothes, but he doesn’t seem to mind as he hands you the flowers. Officially asking you on your first date, which is an even cuter picnic watching the sun set together.
-He’s quite a hopeless sap when it comes down to it, he’s very enamored by you, and he does get a little caught up in the newness of it all. It’s still completely genuine on his part, though. While he might have rose-tinted glasses on, he really does feel that deeply for you, and he makes good on showing you that affection.
-Now, before I get into the meat of the cutesy shit with him, we need to acknowledge some of the problems he might have as your partner.
-Firstly, Wriothesley is a very emotionally stunted person. He wasn’t shown affection for a good part of his childhood, and the affection he did receive was coated in deceit, so he struggles to express himself when it counts. He’s great at setting and respecting boundaries, but genuine emotions? Well… count him out. 
-He really struggles to open up to you, despite how much he knows he should – how much he wants to. It’s just not something that comes easily from him. He needs patience, understanding, and maybe a bit of handholding through it all. 
-It is a slow crawl through a lot of cold shoulders and gentle deflection, but he tries his best, and he gets there eventually. He still doesn’t really like to bog you down with his own issues, but if you reach out to him and ask him what's bothering him, he’ll tell you. He’ll allow you to take care of him and worry over his well-being and collude with Sigewinne to get him to take breaks.
-Even when he isn’t willing to let you inside, he’s still appreciative of your efforts, and he shows you through subtle acts of service. Quiet thanks for worrying, even though he’s just not ready to let you see the more broken sides of him.
-Another issue that runs right along this one is his problems with trusting, not just you, but pretty much anyone who isn’t Neuvilette or Sigewinne. (He thinks he also trusts Chlorinde, at least professionally, and Navia is nice enough, but he won’t be spilling his life secrets to either of them.)
-Naturally, you’ve already won him over a bit, so you have more of an advantage than most other people, but he’s not really transparent to start. He’s kind of mysterious, giving you little hints, but never quite letting you past the surface of the sea.
-You’re curious about his past, most people are – what with the giant fucking scars all over his body. Anyone would want to know where their partner got them, and it’s not like he’s ashamed of them… he just doesn’t want you to think of him like that.
-He doesn’t want you to know how helpless he felt all those years ago, the terrible things he did to stay alive, and how hard he fought to get to the point he was at now. Most people would call it a triumphant story, but Wriothesley wants his past to stay in his past. You were his future, and he didn’t want to see the pity in your eyes when he told you about that part of him.
-Yet, no matter how hard he tried, it was a part of him that he couldn’t get rid of. If he wanted a life with you, he was going to have to tell you at some point. He would rather he be the one to get the story to you, rather than someone else (like Neuvilette, who would tell you if you played your cards right.)
-It’s hard for him to tell you, and even harder to see how gentle you are to him as he talks. There’s a sadness in your eyes that makes his heart ache, but you don’t treat him like he’s helpless. You just let him talk, and you listen, and when he’s done, you tell him that it doesn’t change the way you think about him at all.
-You don’t make it a big deal, you just… accept it. It’s nice, and while he doesn’t know how to express that appreciation properly, he knows you know how much it means to him. You always seem to know him better than he realizes, and he thinks you can say the same about him.
-I also mentioned earlier that there’s the issue of him living in the fortress. I know most people headcannon he has a place above the surface, but that just doesn’t really feel in character for him. He has no real reason (before you) to have a home on the mainland of Fontaine, so why would he waste his time and money picking out and decorating a home when he lives in his office most days?
-After getting with you, though, he has to find a way to bridge that physical gap between the two of you more efficiently. Sure, he gets to see you nearly every day when you’re finished with work, but you always return to the surface, and he doesn’t get to wake up to you ever. 
-His solution? Sleep shifts. One night he’ll come up to your place on the surface, the next you’ll stay down with him. It’s not the most efficient method, but he isn’t going to make you stay in the fortress with him, and he can’t reasonably live above ground all the time in case something happens that needs his attention.
-He loves the domesticity of seeing you when he first wakes up. You look so good with your hair all messy and drool pooling on your pillow. It’s not something he’d ever been afforded in his life, so he savors the little moments that he gets to have with you. Frequently, you wake up to him stroking your hair tenderly, watching you with all the love in the world.
-Something else he really loves is making breakfast with you. Whether he’s cooking or you are, it doesn’t matter; dancing around the kitchen while pancakes cook on the stove is a fantasy he’d never imagined he’d be allowed to live out.
-Oh, he also loves it when you help him shave his facial hair. If you like it, he’ll let it grow out a little longer than he normally would, but Sigewinne always complains past a certain point. To keep both of you happy, he lets you shave him when you both have free time.
-Seated on the edge of the sink in the bathroom, he stands between your legs with his hands on your thighs, purring out sweet nothings as you carefully run the razor over the sensitive skin beneath his jaw. It’s a surprisingly intimate moment you get to share with him, somehow made romantic with the way he holds you so close and gazes at you with unspeakable affection.
-It takes a lot of trust to let someone hold a sharp blade to your neck, and while this isn’t the same thing, it’s got the same feel.
-Something to note about Wriothesley is just how gentle he is with you. Regardless of if you’re bigger than him or not, he handles you the same way. He’s never rough with you. He never grabs you, he never pushes you, and he doesn’t ever yell at you either.
-It’s important to him that you feel safe around him. He doesn’t want you to know the sheer terror he had to face as a young child, learning that he was going to be sold off and likely slaughtered by the people who were supposed to love him.
-He does love you, with no secret motive, and he spends every second with you, displaying that with every fiber of his being. Every touch is soft, every word is chosen carefully, and every act of service is made with complete consideration of what you want. It’s like he knows what you need far before you can even think of it, and he makes it seem so effortless. It’s not, though, it’s very intentional and just a silent gesture he uses to show you how much he cares.
-Even when you argue, Wriothesley does not raise his voice. You will never hear him speak to you the way he speaks to the prisoners of the Fortress. He respects you, even when he is angry or when you are screaming at him. His cold demeanor can come off as uncaring, but you come to realize that he is acting that way because he cares. He would never raise his voice to you, ever. He loves you too much to see you cower under the weight of that.
-This bleeds into his fierce need to protect you. You are an adult, you can take care of yourself, but boy, does he want to do it all for you.
-It’s not an ego thing, nor is it a power thing; he just really likes taking care of you. It isn’t even something that’s really obvious, mostly subtle little shows of care. Like him checking in and seeing if you’ve eaten, or massaging your knots out of your back, or letting you nap on his couch after a long day. It’s usually sweet manifestations like that.
-Usually.
-As the warden of the biggest prison system in Fontaine (the only prison system in Fontaine), Wriothesley has his fair share of people who wish him ill. Comes with the job description, and it isn’t like he didn’t have that even before taking his place as Duke of the Fortress. He can take the heat, it’s not an issue for him.
-What is an issue, however, is when that ire for him is turned toward you.
-Most times it’s just stupid prisoners making a passing comment, (which he doesn’t tolerate either, but doesn’t make a big show out of. A few sharp words shuts them up quickly enough.) You brush them off fine on your own, and you can pack a punch thanks to him, so he doesn’t worry much about them.
-The issue lies with those who mean to harm him. As the Duke of the Fortress and a Pankration champion, most prisoners know he’s pretty untouchable. They don’t have the influence to undo him, and they can’t beat him in a fight. There wasn’t much to hold against him… until there was you.
-It’s no secret to those living in the fortress just how much Wriothesley adores you, you’re quite the soft spot for him. It’s obvious that those who want to get to him would try to use you to achieve that. It’s just… they never really get far enough to do anything in most cases.
-Wriothesley is so attentive to you that he can just get in the way of any plans they might have. If he can’t stop them from trying, usually a show that he knows what they’re doing is enough to get them off you. But there are the brave, stupid few.
-If anyone, and I mean anyone, tries to cause you harm intentionally, they’re a dead man walking. The second they lay a hand on you, their life is essentially over. He’s not above beating the point into their skull if he needs to. Poor Sigewinne has quite a troublesome case on her hands after that.
-Forbid if they actually lay their hands on you. It takes all of his self-restraint not to kill them, which he does not do, because he has a lot of self-control. It doesn’t stop the thought from running through his mind over and over as he escorts them to a high-security cell, though.
-While he cannot legally kill anyone, he works very hard to keep them locked up and stuck with him for as long as possible. They also become a social recluse in the Fortress, as most prisoners and employees are rather fond of you.
-It’s not a side of himself he’s proud of, which is why he tries his best not to let you see it, but it’s part of him nonetheless. He just cannot afford to lose you for any reason. You are the most important thing in his life, and losing you would devastate him to a point he’s never seen before. 
-Other than that, he is usually a very gentle and loving man, wholly devoted to your relationship.
-He values any time that he gets to spend with you, be that sitting quietly in his office doing things separately but together, or having you settled in his lap as he works. It doesn’t matter much so long as he has you there. 
-Speaking of, he is very physically affectionate. You wouldn’t imagine him to be, but with a partner, he just has a need to touch. He’ll settle a hand on your waist, an arm around your shoulder, press a kiss to your temple, pull you into his lap as he works, and pretty much anything that he can get from you, he’ll take.
-Something particularly charming is that when he passes you, he’ll pull you to the side so that he can kiss you. Then he moves on with his day like nothing happened. It leaves you flustered, but it’s so sweet that you can’t find yourself getting mad about it.
-He’s also a tease, through and through. He’s always poking fun at you and making silly comments to get you to smile. It’s just the way he expresses comfort around people, but he really knows how to get under your skin.
-Don’t worry, though, for as much as he can annoy you, he’s doubly sweet and caring. He always knows what you need far before you need it, and if he doesn’t, he makes sure that he can get what you need done as soon as possible.
-He’s reliable, a sturdy rock for you to lean on when you need someone there for you. While you have some issues, what couple doesn’t? Wriothesley is more than willing to go through whatever highs and lows with you, so long as it means both of you can stay happy in love for as long as possible.
NSFW :3c
-Wriothesley’s relationship with sex isn’t something that he likes to talk about for a multitude of reasons.
-He’s not some touch-starved helpless virgin, but he also isn’t the most experienced. Most of his experience in bed comes from a mutual need to get off when he was still a prisoner, a sort of agreement between him and a select few partners that kept them satisfied.
-It was rough and aggressive and honestly a little shameful looking back on it now, not something he really wanted to think about too hard. Certainly not how he wanted to have sex with you, it felt too… disconnected from his feelings.
-He also didn’t want to force things; your first time should be natural, but also intimate. He wanted to lay you out on his (or your, whichever was closest) bed and take his time with it, not bend you over his desk and make you take it. (He could do that, if you wanted him to, but not for your first time together. He was really trying not to live up to the hardened prison warden stereotype, after all.)
-Even with his own expectations in mind, he mostly wanted it to feel good. He wanted things to flow together without needing to push or pull, and he didn’t want you to feel like you had to do anything for him. 
-Yeah… the level-headed Wriothesley was 100% overthinking things. You can’t blame him, though! He’s never really had sex for anything more than a feeling, and he wanted you to feel loved, not like you were an object for his own pleasure.
-This leads to him subconsciously rebuffing your advances like an idiot. You weren’t in the right place, he didn’t have any protection, it was getting too late, blah blah blah. He kept making excuses in his head as to why you wouldn’t want to have sex, when it was really him complicating things needlessly.
-Luckily for you, you had an ace up your sleeve! Sigewinne, your little gossip buddy in the fortress, heard all your woes of Wriothesley potentially not finding you attractive enough to have sex with. He seemingly never wanted to be with you, no matter what you tried or how eager you seemed.
-She shows up to his office one day with a box of condoms and some lube and tells him to get it over with or she’ll have to mix up a special little remedy to deal with it herself.
-Not wanting his first time with you to be under the influence of an aphrodisiac, he takes the hint and mentally prepares to make a move. He’s still nervous as hell because there are a million what-ifs running through his head, but the second you walk through his office doors, it’s like all of that melts away.
-Having the thought of “I’m going to do this” rather than “Should I do this” really helped him out. His usual confident and assured demeanor is back, and when you seem to imply you’d like to spend some alone time in his bedroom together, he tosses you over his shoulder (playfully, of course) and does just that.
-He allows you to take the lead the first time, mostly because he needs to figure out what you like before he can confidently guide you. So, lucky you, one of your first sexual encounters with him is sucking his dick! (The little “Oh wow” you let out seeing his size was an ego booster for sure. The following: “You think it’ll fit?” made his head as big as his dick.)
-He’s someone who learns over time, so it takes him a few times with you before he starts actively pursuing sex. He takes note of things he does that seem to get you hot and bothered. Like the way he tugs at his tie when he’s feeling overworked, or how you stare shamelessly as his arms while he’s moving things around, oh and his ass of course. That’s a fan favorite, it seems.
-It’s a slow thing, but over time, he starts using those little ticks against you. When he’s feeling needy, he makes you feel needy too. There’s a nice sense of pride he gets when you pursue him, especially when he knows you weren’t the one in the mood first.
-It’s also nice to know that he isn’t pushing any boundaries when you come to him for sex first, so he really only engages you like that if he’s sure it’s something you want. He would rather live through a hundred life sentences than ever make a move that you don’t want.
-It’s really sweet, but it can result in him getting… pent up rather frequently. The two of you already rarely have time for sex, and his suppressing his desire doesn’t exactly help either of your positions at all.
-It makes sessions after longer periods without sex come off as more… rough than he would like. He really does want to be gentle and loving with you, but he also really likes the feel of bending you in half. Quite the conundrum he’s got himself in.
-He’ll bring this fact up to you, and if you give him the okay to be rough? Well, have fun! 
-Wriothesley likes it rough, as much as he wishes he could be the sweet, loving, gentle partner all the time, he can’t help that his brain lights up like a switchboard when he sees you struggling so hard against him. It stems from all that time he spends being in control of the prison; it’s very hard for him to let that go, even for you.
-Still, communication is much more important to him. You have very long conversations with him about what is and is not okay, establish a safeword that both of you can easily remember in the heat of the moment, and always make sure that both of you understand that one of you can say no at any time and it’s done.
-So, what does he like?
-Well, he likes it when you fight him. Be that verbally or physically, the fastest way to get him hot and bothered is to act like a brat. You can show that you’re smart and witty, which is already attractive enough to him, but having you intentionally get under his skin? You'd better hope no one will be needing him anytime soon.
-He has fun putting you in your place and reminding you who exactly tops who in the relationship. He even entertains you sometimes, letting you think you’re getting away with your smart ass mouth, only to suddenly bend you over his desk and remind you of your position with him.
-He doesn’t talk much, though, so don’t expect him to verbally degrade you. He thinks the position and the rough treatment should be enough to get the message across. Sometimes he might growl out a little comment about how desperate you are for him, but otherwise he’s mostly grunts and groans. 
-If you physically fight back against his hold, it excites him more. It’s very unlikely you could overpower him, so all of your efforts are futile, and yet you still seem to try every single time. You push and punch and squirm, but it always ends the same way with your legs over his shoulders and hands pinned above your head.
-It’s also a given he’s into restraining you. With his need for control and easy access to legitimate prison-grade restraints, there’s just no way he doesn’t use that to his advantage. Usually, he’ll just cuff your hands to the headboard or behind your back, but occasionally he’ll bring out more heavy-duty stuff at your begging.
-Oh, that’s another thing. He won’t ever ask you to do it, because it’s an odd request in his eyes, but he loves it when you beg. He’ll get you teary-eyed and whining, and the only way to get him to snap out of his teasing is to beg him to let you cum. It works like a charm every single time.
-He also loves to overstimulate you to the point of tears. He can spend hours between your legs pushing you over the edge and watching you cum over and over for him. He thinks you’re so cute when you whine at him like that, and if you don’t tell him to stop, he probably won’t.
-He doesn’t even care about his own pleasure; he’s just so obsessed with watching you fall apart under his touch. His cold blue eyes will stare you down through the whole ordeal, watching every little twitch of your expression with rapt attention. It’s wholly overwhelming to have his intense eyes watching your every little move, but so damn hot at the same time.
-If he isn’t looking at your face, he’s likely watching the way you take him. He just can’t stop himself from staring, it’s an addicting sight to see how he sinks into you over and over – be that his fingers or his cock, it doesn’t matter. It’s mesmerizing all the same.
-And if you pleasure yourself for him? All the better. It’s nice to see you struggle to get off when he knows he can do it so much faster than you can. Almost cute the way you pout up at him when you were the one who asked him to keep his hands to himself.
-He likes to feel you, too, most of the time putting you in positions where as much skin as humanly possible is touching. The way your body reacts beneath his touch is dizzying, he can feel the pleasure twitching through your muscles as he holds you close. Oh, and feeling the air force its way out of your lungs as his hand wraps around your throat is another kind of addiction he didn’t know existed.
-The last, rather odd kink he has, one that he’s very ashamed of, is that he’s huge on smelling you. He’d lean down between your legs and just get a whiff if he could, but since that would be a bit too obvious, he settles for burying his nose into your shoulder and smelling your sweat-slick skin that way.
-Doesn’t stop him from sneaking your used underwear and pocketing it for later use – usually when he’s having a particularly rough day, he’ll bring it out and get a nice long sniff of you. Always gets his ass going until he can see you again and really let his stress out.
-Now, I mentioned earlier that he’s pretty impressive in size, and I wasn’t joking. He’s big for a regular human man. About six and a half inches long, his dick curves upward and slightly to the right, perfect for abusing your gummy little walls. He has several veins, the most prominent being one along the left side of it stopping about halfway up. 
-He’s slightly darker than his actual complexion, and his tip is a pretty light red color, flatter than most other men's. The stretch he gives you is instant, as he only flares out a little from the tip. He’s about 5 inches around, too, meaning he’s not just long. Also, he’s uncircumcised, so do with that what you will.
-He knows how to keep a good balance between rough and soft, and he’s usually more intuitive about what you’re looking for in a given session than what he’s looking for from you. He doesn’t want you to think he only wants you for your body, and as such, he tries to make at least one session in a week soft and gentle if he has the time.
-Sex is a stress reliever for him, yes, but it’s also an expression of trust and love from both of you. He trusts you enough to let you see him in such a vulnerable state, and you trust him enough to treat you the way he does, because you know he would never go out of his way to hurt you ever.
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xavistarlight · 1 month ago
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I knew to love would be to lose my mind
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Pairing: Caleb x fem!reader
CW : ANGST, reader is most likely experiencing undiagnosed postpartum depression.
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You sit on the couch completely zoned out, every once in a while bouncing the baby on your chest.
As you turn your head you look out the window a group of lively people that seem to be about your age, having the time of their lives.
You turn your focus back to the babygirl on your chest, smiling at her with tired eyes.
God it wasn’t supposed to end up this way, you weren’t supposed to be one of those moms who’s baby is there whole life.
Your train of thought broken as you hear a knock on the door
Placing your babygirl down in her pack and play you go to open the door.
There stands a charming, violet eyed man full of life, your husband Caleb.
His brightness usually shining and brightening your light now blew your light bulb completely out stripping it of its already dim light.
He engulfs you in a hug
“ hi honey, you been okay today?“ he asks sweetly
“Mhm, same as always Caleb.” You say a little snippy pulling away from his hug.
It wasn’t right, you knew it he was the perfect partner, the perfect father , the perfect support system you had no right to be mad at him. But you couldn’t help but resent him he had it all he got to continue with his career, he wasnt stressed, the baby loved him. He juggled it all with a big bright smile on his face.
A part of you wanted him to fuck up so bad, god could he mess up at something anything just a reminder that he was human, that he was in the same boat as you.
You two now lay in bed snuggled close to one another as you feel something hard pressing into you
You flip over quickly startling Caleb who was dozing off.
He then looks down even more startled.
“Pips I’m so sorry, I didn’t even know let me go take care of it” he give you a boyish grin but as he gets up to move you place your hand on his shoulder.
“ or.. I could help you with it”
“ honey, there’s no pressure you know what the doctor said just a little longer I miss you to but we gotta wait” he says kissing your cheek
That’s when you break, you just break all of your emotions you’ve held inside come out.
“ are you fucking kidding me” you stare at him blankly
“ so now I can’t even be intimate with my husband right, what the fuck can I do” you chuckle to yourself
“ honey that’s not-“ Caleb tries to say something but you cut him off
“ no, don’t even Caleb it’s true I don’t do anything right I’m a failure, I’m a failure at being a mother , a wife , a hunter at everything”
Caleb grabs your hand his violet eyes holding so much emotion trying to get through to you
“ baby, don’t say that our daughter absolutely adores you, and you’re the light of my life and the greatest hunter I’ve ever known. It’s tough I know I have my moments to-“
You let out a condescending chuckle
“easy for you to say, you’ve never failed at anything. I’ve known you my entire life and if I counted the time you failed it could probably fit on one finger, so don’t feed that bullshit to me Caleb, like I don’t know you”
Caleb goes to say something again but you cut him off angrily
“ god you know what Caleb get out”
He looks at you shocked how had the conversation escalated this far.
“ baby, I don’t understand?”
“ I HATE you Caleb what is there to not understand I RESENT YOU I resent you with all my being. I wish I’d never MET YOU.”
“ pipsqueak, you don’t mean that” he says going to hold your hand again tears welling in his eyes.
“ no Caleb I mean it , I love you but I hate you all in the same breath, I’m losing my mind I can’t take it anymore!” you pull your hand back tears streaming down your face either out of anger or sadness you can’t tell maybe the latter.
Caleb’s heart shatters into pieces, he was bringing you all this pain? This whole time he was trying to help but your heart was aching with an unfixable crack. And it wouldn’t heal until he was gone.
so he agreed, he got up silently packing a bag of necessities as you sat and watched an unreadable expression on your face.
As he’s about to walk out the door of your shared room he stops himself before turning back around a devastating look plastered across his face.
“ can… I have a kiss goodbye” he speaks lowly
You nod silently enough words had come from your mouth tonight.
He walks over to you timidly before placing a kiss to the crown of your head. A tender, loving bittersweet kiss.
Staying like that for a few seconds as you hear him sniffle holding back his tears.
That night you cry yourself to sleep unsure of what emotions you’re even feeling.
You get up in the middle of the night to check on your babygirl stopping by the bathroom to splash your face with some water, looking at yourself in the mirror eyes filled with devastation puffy from the sobs let out as you curled into yourself on the bed.
as you make it to her room you open the door and look to the right.
Asleep in the rocking chair, under eyes just as red and puffy as the eyes that had looked back at you in the mirror when you got up.
Caleb
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adoringaffliction · 7 days ago
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Apologies
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Joel Miller x Naive!Reader
Warnings: angst and comfort, Joel yells at reader, reader is a little stupid, oral (fem receiving), religious imagery
Summary: Joel is an angry man, but he never wants to make you cry.
MDNI 18+
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All you could think about after you bought the dress was how pretty Joel would think it was. You wanted to look nice for him. You’d never had anyone to please and now that you did you were determined to do it right. But when you came home the reaction you were hoping for was far from the current situation you were in. 
“We were saving for important things Y/n! And you bought a dress?! A dress!,” Joel shouted. Joel grabbed the hem of your dress and pulled it up for you to look at. “All of my hard work. I work to feed you. Not to put you in fancy fuckin’ dresses.” 
“I’m sorry I didn’t think-,” you stammered, tears starting to brew in the corners of your eyes. 
“You see that’s the real problem y/n. You don’t think. Not a thought runs through that dumb little head of yours. You get these fantasies that everything is going to be okay, that this will all be over soon. News flash! It’s not. I work my ass off every day to provide you the necessities you need to live, and you fuck me over. You spend our money on stupid shit.” 
You looked down at your feet avoiding looking at Joel,”I’m sorry.” You sobbed a little harder when he stomped away to the bedroom, leaving you in the middle of your kitchen alone. You stood in your own shame and lack of understanding. All you had wanted was for him to tell you that you looked pretty. All you wanted was to feel like you were worth his attention. In your head you understood that Joel gave up a lot to be with you. He gave up women his own age. Women of more experience, and most of all his own supplies. All he did was provide. 
You really felt stupid now. You crumpled to the floor and leaned back against the kitchen cabinets. Hiding your face in your hands you rocked back and forth uttering self deprecating affirmations that only ended up making you cry more. 
After what felt like a long time you heard the door at the end of the hall open and Joel’s footsteps get nearer. You didn't look up. You stayed curled up in a ball on the floor. You sniffled and saw his feet right in front of you as you opened your eyes. 
“Okay, c’mon, stand up,” Joel commanded, voice softer than before. You obeyed, unfolding and rising, but never meeting his eyes. His arms wrapped around you pulling you close to him and resting his chin upon the top of your head. “M’sorry for yelling,” he whispered into your hair. 
“It’s okay I was stupid-”
“No, we’re not doing that. You’re not stupid and what I said was mean. It’s just frustrating when I work so hard and see you using our resources for frivolous things honey. I wish I could give you everything you want, but I can’t.” 
“I just wanted to look pretty for you.” 
“Oh, sweetpea… you’re always pretty for me-”
“But I feel so inadequate and I just- I just want you to know that I appreciate you choosing me instead of someone else…” You said finally looking up and meeting his brown eyes. 
His brow furrowed in confusion as you spoke. The ache of misunderstanding etched into his skin,”Honey I will never choose anyone but you, you have to know that…” But he could see in your face that you weren’t entirely convinced. This bothered Joel. There was nothing in the world that he wanted more than you. To see you smile, to hear you laugh, to hear you moan his name when no one else was awake but the two of you…
“Let me prove it to you.” Joel wrapped his hands around you and hoisted you into the air effortlessly, years of tough labour evident in his strength. He carried you to your shared bedroom and laid you gently across the covers of your bed. 
“This dress is gorgeous on you sweetpea…”
“Thank you Joel,” You smiled softly up at him and Joel could’ve sworn that he felt his insides melt. Melt into a golden fluid whose only purpose was to force him to understand that all that mattered was you. You and your skin, and the musk that emanated off of it. Every small miniscule change in your facial expression. Every strand of hair. Every eyelash that clung to the other, savoring the moisture of your salty tears. Tears that he had caused. Tears brought about not from overwhelming pleasure, but shouting and anger. Joel had never been more determined to correct the misfortunate way he had spoken to the one girl he truly loved. 
Joel pushed your dress up your body and watched as it scrunched around your midriff. The process revealed white cotton panties that clung to your every curve. He pressed gentle kisses to the seams of the fabric. One after the other whispering small,”I’m sorry”s in between kisses. 
“Please let me make it up to you honey,” He pleaded, the softness of his words colliding with the gravely sound of his voice. His eyes met yours as you nodded. With that he pulled your panties to the side and gently kissed over your cunt finally pressing a firmer kiss to your clit. Small whimpers left your lips as Joel made out with your pussy, taking his time and making sure each and every inch of you was attended to. 
Joel’s tongue was warm and experienced, each flick making you feel like you were getting further and closer to god. If god even existed in a world like this, but if he did, you were sure it was the man whose head rested between your thighs. 
You could feel the rough texture of his stubble rub against the delicate skin of your inner thighs. Each expert lick of Joel’s tongue felt like heaven, the feeling amplified by his uncoordinated groans every time your thighs pressed themselves to the sides of his head. You hand crawled down grasping for purchase within his hair. You tugged and he groaned. Your mouth fell open and broken gasps resonated out of it, your lips stretching to meet your jaw as it spread wider and wider. 
Joel wrapped his lips around your clit and your back arched off of the bed. His tongue swirled around the bud as he looked up at you expectantly. Joel knew you were close, it was only a matter of time before-
“Joel- oh- I’m gonna cum-” and with that your legs twitched and your fingers tightened as they threaded themselves through his salt and pepper locks. A sigh left your lips and your back finally fell back into a neutral position as you came down. Joel separated himself from your cunt to look up at you. The baby hairs that clung to the sweaty skin of your face. Your flushed lips and cheeks, and the rise and fall of your chest as you tried to catch your breath.
He smiled,”I will only ever choose you.”
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bleedingichorhearts · 6 months ago
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𝐊𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐅𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬:
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𝕬𝖚𝖙𝖍𝖔𝖗: This was inspired by a chat between me & a fellow requester @originalgothhoagiefish-blog. My tumbler master list looks like a mess, but I'm trying to get placement right.
𝕾𝖚𝖒𝖒𝖆𝖗𝖞: What happens when you bite your god-like mosquito back during heated times?
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TW // Smut, Clothed, Bulge, Biting.
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Your angel was hungry, you can see it in his eyes; the way his angelic wings give a minuscule twitch. How his eyes keep glancing at you, wishing for a bite, and if he was lucky enough… something more. He cannot act on his needs at the moment: he’s caught up in some planetary business that he (and the whole legion) has chosen to leave you out of, but you could. You could sedate him for a bit. Give him something to drink.
“We need—” You move just a bit, gaining the attention of some of the blood angels that guard you, and well… the attention of your spouse. You know you’re causing some type of interruption with your presence just standing there, wanting to at least get to wander about. You get some looks for it: from the opposing planet, but you are undeterred. You trust your lovely legion of mosquitoes to bleed them dry if needed.
You move again and gain a bit more than just looks. You can feel the heat of jealousy burn into your skin, trying to get to your singular heart while you make your way out of the room without being dismissed. You’re sure you would get some snarky remarks about it, but they were in your lovers' domain, not their own. They should know how to act considering they were all mostly nobles.
“My Lady,” One of your sons interrupt you, following you out of the room. Leaving his other brother to observe. His steps heavy but light at the same time with his armor on. “Where are you going?”
“Your father is hungry.” You simply point out what you have seen; singled out and have a very good feeling having understanding on. “So are you.”
“I am not.” The son denies, shaking his helmet. You don’t have to look behind you to know that he was. You, however, were no commoner to your lovers’ needs, nor to his legion. You were here long enough to understand their... cues of peculiar hunger.
“Do not deny the truth Son of The Angel.” You muse, giving him a glance behind you. It was amusing how some of them still act a bit childish and refuse things. One would think the children of the stars would be much more… stoic; formal perhaps. Yet they have their moments when they reminded you of complete children.
“I do not deny, my lady.” He huffs, and it’s just amuses you even more. He was— is food angry. “I’m simply… irritated.”
“Irritated.” You repeat his word with a hum. He didn’t want to act nor admit he was hungry, just like his father. They always get a bit grumpy without something to feed them. “Then perhaps you wouldn’t be swayed with my offered blood?”
You’re quick with it, taking your defense dagger from your waist and slicing the palm of your hand of it before turning around on your heel and presenting your now bleeding palm to the son. Your hand in a slight cupped formation to keep your own blood from wasting to the ground.
“My lady…”
“Do not refuse what is generously offered, it is rude.” You are also quick on your tongue, interrupting the loyal son. Your bloody hand moving a bit as if to urge them to drink from your lifeline that slowly pours from your hand and down your arm.
“I… your blood should only be offered to our father…” He tries to deny you again, but he’s lured in. He’s leaning in closer to your offered hand. He can’t resist his hunger to feed like most others could. He is a younger Astartes, but you don't blame him for it.
“Hmm, perhaps.” You hum, feeling how your own blood pools in your hand, slowly slipping through your fingers. “But I’m offering you. Do not deny it.”
He sighs at you: a heavy one. His gauntlet coming up to his helmet and taking it off himself. A beautiful shade of dark green appearing as his eyes then the bright blonde as his wavy hair: the length of it is to his shoulder blades or rather pauldron. A few scars littering his face, but he still had those young, youthful features. (Not like the whole legion didn’t.)
“You, are as handsome as your father.” You complement the hesitant Blood Angel. He probably doesn’t want to drink from you because of your status. Doesn’t want to drink what is his Primarchs, and you can't really blame him on that either. You wouldn't want to eat the alphas food either.
However, your husband can make an exception.
"Are you sure my lady?" He asks for your word, your permission. His gauntlet coming forward to grasp at your hand. Stabilizing it for him to drink. It's a cute, small step forward for the young one to resist temptations. "I don't want to be... punished for it."
Oh, how adorable the sons were. Allways asking for permission. Well, almost always. You've heard how they weren't merciful sometimes, and you suppose it's a hard truth to learn of them, or easy. Depending on the person.
"Would you be punished if I was simply offering?" You ask him, moving your fingers a bit as the blood goes down onto his gauntlet. His eyes never leaving your crimson stained hand. "I am giving it to you freely."
"I... suppose not." He sighs, finally leaning a bit down to give your hand and inhale. His tongue liking at his lips before he gives in. The heat of his appendage giving a long lick to your palm. His tongue curling, acting like some sort of spoon to get more blood piled up in his mouth. His fangs barely brushing over the skin of your palm.
It was almost strange. To feel the differences between son and father. At least tongue wise as this sons' tongue was like a cats', yet it's a bit smoother. Sanguinius? His was smooth but had more heat to it. You guess it's because he most drank from you when he was really needy...
After a moment, he releases your wrist as gently as possible. His tongue swirling in his mouth as he moves his hand to cover his lips as if this would require some form of adequate. His eyes looking away from you with a slight blush to his cheeks. "I can see why father chosen you as the legion mother..."
You smile at him, amused and knowing. You know your blood attracts some mosquitoes more than most. Your hand returning back to your side. He has cleaned your hand quite well...
"Hmm, then I suppose you would not mind deliver something to your father; offer for an offer?" You ask the son, pressing on your wounded palm slightly. Watching a bit more blood leaving the slit.
"Of course, it's only reasonable my lady."
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You're back in Sanguinius quarters but the time your... package has been sent to him. Your hands are busy wrapping up your own hand that you injured for the sake of feeding the Sons of The Angel. A small, humming tune leaving you as you tend to the wound.
You wonder if Sanguinius would like your small, editable gift? It was in small quantities, but you wanted your husband to be enriched and not be bored of the nobles that are no doubt talking nonsense, because you know in experience, they like to talk in laughing wealth... or at least those ones do. They never like to do dealings with you... which may lead to their downfall.
You jump a bit when the doors of Sanguinius quarters open. Your eyes giving a brief glance outside. You would have thought he wouldn't have arrived back until dusk, but you suppose not all comes to plan.
"My love, you didn't have to enlighten me with your own blood." Is the first thing that leaves Sanguinius mouth. His clothed form briskly walking to your side, as if he was impatient. His wings fluttering behind him. His eyes staying on you once they land on you: sitting down and wrapping up your hand.
Oh, yeah, he is definitely impatient.
"Oh? So, you knew it was my blood?" You muse, returning to wrapping up your palm. A little embarrassed to look at him now. How could you? You might have just done something brave, but incredibly stupid. Might of. You're not too sure. Would he scold you for it?
"How could I not?" He inhales. His lips suddenly close to your neck and it makes your heart pulse. His hands moving anything from shoulder from obstructing what he wants. "Your blood is my addiction; my own life as it is the legions..."
His chest is pressed up behind you as he leans down to cover you in his shadow. His own hand slowly coming do to grasp at your wrist with the bandages around it. The huge, obvious size difference was always remarkable to you.
"You fed the sons as you fed me." He hums, his lips pressing into your neck and you can't help but give him more access. Your body leaning back into him. "Generous of you, even if we didn't need it."
"Oh, please." You scoff, amused. Flipping your wrapped hand in his, tracing your fingers in his palm. "You were hungry."
"And I," He pauses, musing with you. Kissing you on the cheek as his arms wrap around you. His nose nuzzling into your neck, inhaling again before he suddenly lifts you up from the chair. A surprised yelp of his name falling through your lips as you squirm in his hold. "Still am."
"Sanguinus!" You gasp his name again, your body plopping down into the soft sheets of his bed with him directly on top of you. His hands wrapping around your waist with unnatural ease. Silently telling you just how much he could just take you; ragdoll you as his lips attack your neck. No doubt enjoying how your veins pluses a bit quicker when he excites you; teases you.
"You had no need to feed me when I can have you here; fully." He chuckles into your neck, sending a bit of a vibrations through you at the closeness. His wings behind him spreading out, covering you in his shadow, his scent, him. His hands on your waist keeping you in place for him to enjoy what is beneath him.
"Did... did you like what I have given you?" You ask a bit hesitantly, moving your own hands to his body. Your fingers tracing every outline you can find on the top half of his torso. You were afraid you might get some form of judgment from him.
"I wanted to leave the room once my tongue touched the thickness of your blood in that glass." He groans quietly, inhaling deeply again. His body shifting a bit above you while one of his hands wander just a bit lower... "I truly wonder if you were teasing me."
"Me? Never." You purr slightly out to him, enjoying his wandering his hands. You didn't want to make it sound like you were teasing him, and you weren't, it wasn't intended, but you wouldn't be opposed to be testing a Primarchs' limits in different ways besides the intensity of chaos.
"Oh, really?" He rumbles amusingly, his eyes trailing over your face. His mouth hanging open to slide his fangs over your neck, teasing you. Your body giving a shiver at the feeling as you really didn't know when he would bite you. He liked to be a bit mysterious on it.
"Really." You simply confirm, sliding one of your fingers under the waist band of his clothing, touching the bare skin of him at his v-line. His fangs, and a huff of his hot breath warning you by your neck, confining with you.
He was losing his patience ever slowly with you.
"Then I don't believe you are teasing me now, are you?" He hums, switching to give your neck a kiss again. His eyes hooded in a tired lure while his waist thrusts forward a little, urging your hands to go further down his waist. Teasing the both of you as your fingernails gently claw above where the both of you want.
"Certainly n-not- Sanguinus!"
He laughs lowly at your yelp as he gave a nip to your collar bone, drawing a very small amount of blood to taste you once more. He wants to savor the source of his food, his drink. He want's your fulfilling warmth of your blood, of you. He wants you.
His fangs trace your neck, slowly feeling how your skin twitches and pluses underneath his lips as he occasionally giving you kisses, prepping you for him to feast. One of his hands shifting to move yours a bit lower on him. Where you can feel the thickness of him and his heat. A low grunt leaving him while he has to restrain himself from about wreaking you for the next weeks to come. That is, if he doesn't drink you to exhaustion first.
Your hands grasp at him, slowly teasing him, pumping him up and down. It should have been impossible for you to do so because of his height but with the way he practically curls around you for your touch, it was not, and sometimes? You curse at yourself for your smaller height, feeling bad for your lover having to curl around you for the simplicity of intimacy, but oh... It makes things feel deliciously bigger; thicker.
You shutter a gasp when his fangs slowly pierce your skin. Hands grasping his length a bit harder while you try accommodate to the slight pain that stings you. Your nose slightly nuzzling into his jawline as you feel him drink from you. A little, satisfied hum leaving him as he swallows, even gracefully in these heated times. His waist thrusting slightly as his length in your hands moves for you.
"Sanguinus..." You sigh into him, your mind filled with unholy thoughts of him. How he would- will take you. How he would leave you weak and submissive for him to use to his pleasure. How his cock would fill you with overwhelming efficiency, touching all the sweet spots only he knows about.
He hums at you, louder to acknowledge your wants. His body shifting above you while he still drinks from you. Position himself to where you wanted him. Your hands helping him find his mark, just above your core. You're still clothed, but that's what the zippers and openings on the bottom's of the dresses are for. For your lover to fuck you good all while trying to keep up a professional and neat image.
Your body shutters while you lead him inside of you. Bursts of shorts breaths leaving you as you can feel his length slowly fill you. A slight bulge appearing on your skin where he sits himself inside your walls. Moans leaving the both of you when your walls tighten around him, and you can't but help to think of biting your lover back. It sounds appealing to you in your mind. Your body curling more into him, getting closer to him as he moves with you to continually feed on you.
His gives a small, testing thrust inside of you. Exciting another gasp from you while you move closer to his shoulder, your breath painting his own clothing. Your hands moving to grasp at his shoulders as he always felt a bit overwhelming when he was inside of you at first. You were still trying to accommodate him, but each growing second grew more pleasurable.
A whiny-like moan leaves you when he thrusts again. Hands desperately grasping at him now as the combined efforts of giving you pleasure and drinking from you was a pleasurable overkill for your sensitive nerves. Your own teeth brushing over his neck, and you can tell he froze for a second; pausing his drinking but keeping his fangs fit into your neck.
That, is when you gently bite into him yourself. Your teeth latching onto him gently on his collar bone: voided of his clothing. You bit him gently enough that wouldn't cause a mark, even if you knew how hard you had to bite him for anything to be done to him, it wouldn't cause anything to him, but in heated times? It was like activating his carnality card.
He is quick to move, unlatching from your neck and giving it a reassuring lick before he's hovering above you again. His hands settling on your thighs, giving you slow, rolling thrusts that were repetitive. It has you arching your back into the sheets with your hands grasping at his on your thighs. Mewls leaving you as he ever slowly goes faster and faster. Loosing himself: losing his resolve with you. Quiet grunts and growls leaving him while he keeps readjusting his hands on your thighs to your waist to keep you in place on his cock. His wings behind him moving and fluttering with his rabid thrusts.
Perhaps, you should bite him a bit more often? Maybe offer some surprising drinks of your blood too? It was certainly an experience, and a chance for you to be bedridden for a couple of weeks.
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dioslesbianwife · 14 days ago
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YIPPEEEEEE REQUESTS ARE OPEN AGAIN!! I absolutely love your work!!! Now mayhaps I can as for some Stand Whisper!Reader? (I read the previous two works and found them absolutely adorable and now I crave more)
This time, since stands love the reader SO SO much, how would the Jojos feel if like they saw a hoard of stands waiting in their backyard like a gang of stray cats. Then the reader shuffles past them with an armful of stand-specific treats like “They’re here for me—Hey babiessss!!! How are you today!!!” -cue cacophony of happy stand noises- (And as a lil tid-bit of extra funnies and hahas you don’t have to add this but mayhaps the Jojos find the gang’s stands are also there or maybe even the enemy stands who are poorly disguised so they can get good food)
Love your work, thank for you feeding the Jojo fans, happy writing!!!^^
thank youu! sure, i love writing the stand whisperer ones haha this is such a cute and funny idea lol, thank u for requesting, i hope u enjoy <333!
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Jonathan Joestar
Jonathan doesn’t even know what a Stand is. So when he wakes up to a crowd of strange, semi-transparent figures in the yard, he’s like 🧍‍♂️“??? Demons??? Ghosts??”
Then he hears you giggling like, “Aw, Mr. Hermit Purple! You brought your friends today!” and watches you distribute exact little snacks like a tea party host.
He’s frozen at the window. "Are... those yours?"
“Nope! They’re just visiting. Aren’t they cute?”
He’s both impressed and extremely confused. 
“They’re like stray cats… but made of spiritual power. You have such a kind aura. It makes sense they'd trust you.”
He tries to bring you sandwiches once while you’re outside feeding them. They move for him. He screams a little.
Jonathan: secretly jealous. He wishes he could understand Stands the way you do.
Joseph Joestar
He thinks he’s hallucinating when he sees Hierophant Green poking its tendrils through the fence.
Then he spots you walking barefoot across the lawn like a Stand Disney Princess™ with a bag of treats labeled things like “Sticky Fingers: Sugar-Free Gum” and “Echoes: Scooby Snacks.”
Joseph leans on the windowsill like “Babe. BABE. What are you DOING?!”
You: “Feeding them. They came all this way.”
“Came from WHERE?! HELL?!”
He tries to approach and a bunch of enemy Stands hiss at him like rabid raccoons. Joseph screeches and flees.
He watches you pet a poorly disguised Strength (yes, the orangutan’s cargo ship stand) like “Who’s a good boat?? Yes you are!”
Joseph starts suspecting every Stand user you meet is secretly just there for you.
Jealous af, but too proud to admit it. Starts bribing the Stands with hot dogs.
Jotaro Kujo
Jotaro steps outside in the morning with a coffee and finds like. A platoon of Stands silently sitting in the grass like spiritual flamingos.
Star Platinum is there, cuddled up like a big purple cat under your arm as you hand out weird otherworldly snacks like a zookeeper.
He stares. Deadpan. “Yare yare daze. What the hell is this?”
You wave. “Morning! They're just chilling!”
Jotaro narrows his eyes. The World is here. Dressed in a pair of sunglasses. He’s wearing a hat. He’s trying to be incognito. Failing miserably.
Jotaro: “Is that DIO’s fucking Stand?”
You: “Maybe! He likes the freeze-dried strawberries.”
He walks away grumbling but can’t hide that tiny twitch of a smile when he hears the Stands purr at your voice.
Later finds out that his Star Platinum snuck out at night to go nap at the foot of your bed. Jotaro has never felt so threatened.
Josuke Higashikata
Josuke goes to take out the trash and trips over The Hand who is lying on your porch like a giant lazy dog waiting for scraps.
He SCREAMS.
“BABE???! THERE’S STANDS ON OUR LAWN!!”
You’re in a bathrobe, sleepy-eyed, carrying a tray of specific items. “I made treats. Crazy Diamond likes lemonade, but don’t tell anyone.”
You walk out and the instant your feet touch the grass, the Stands start vibrating with joy.
Josuke watches his own Stand get up and nuzzle your face.
“Bro. Even MY Stand???”
You: “He’s very well-behaved! He even helped carry the snacks today!”
When Josuke sees enemy Stands like Red Hot Chili Pepper and Killer Queen trying to wear fake mustaches to blend in, he goes feral.
“NO. I AM NOT LETTING CHEAP TRICK IN MY HOUSE.” Cue you gently petting Cheap Trick like a gross little raccoon.
Giorno Giovanna
The mafia Don walks out into the vineyard and sees THREE enemy Stands, TWO members of Passione’s, and 1 lonely Black Sabbath lounging on his lawn like sunbathers.
You’re in the middle, gently patting them and handing out color-coded macaron snacks.
Gold Experience turns to him like ‘sorry boss, they’re here for…the food.’
Giorno’s like 😦 “That’s… adorable? Terrifying? Both??”
“Are you taming them??”
“Nope! They just come for snack day! Turns out Purple Haze likes confetti cake.”
Giorno doesn’t stop you, but he starts keeping little tabs on who shows up. Even King Crimson lurks once and Giorno is like 👁️👄👁️
Still, he feels pride watching how even the most violent Stands melt under your affection. It proves what he’s always known: you’re kind, but powerful.
Starts asking you to “negotiate” with enemy Stands before fights. They always listen to you.
Jolyne Cujoh
Jolyne comes home and finds her bed occupied by Stone Free, who is being spooned by your entire body.
She goes to your backyard and sees a full-blown Stand daycare.
Whitesnake is hiding behind a tree like he thinks you won’t notice. Limp Bizkit is chewing on your shoes.
“Babe what the fuck is this???”
You: “They get anxious. The world is hard for them.”
She gets a little jealous but also loves it. Especially when even enemy Stands chill out around you.
“You tamed that disgusting Green Baby?? HOW??”
Stands have learned to protect you too. If anyone yells at you, they will materialize behind you like:
😐🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪
Once Foo Fighters shows up in a bucket, Jolyne gives up trying to understand.
“Yeah alright. At this point I believe you could calm Made in Heaven with a head scratch and a saddle.”
Johnny Joestar
Johnny wakes up and finds you talking to Tusk Act 1 like it’s a literal feral child.
“Hey buddy! You came back! I made the little golden beetle snack you like!”
It SPINS and chirps and launches into your arms like a flying rodent.
He’s like 😐 “Do you know that thing can kill.”
You: “He’s misunderstood.”
The yard is full of STANDS, including some from corpse part seekers, just quietly eating your magical little ghost treats.
Johnny rolls up like “I got beef with half of these freaks” and they all hiss at him like cats.
You literally make a nest of Stands to cuddle in. Even Scary Monsters curls around you like a dinosaur pup.
Johnny mumbles something about “Stand groupies” and stomps away, but secretly thinks you’re the most terrifyingly powerful person he’s ever met.
Josuke Higashikata (Gappy)
Josuke is confused. Always.
“Babe? Why is Born This way in our garden?”
You: “It likes orange and lemon slices!”
“That Stand has chased me like a hunting dog.”
Josuke watches Soft & Wet purring like a baby under your lap while I Am a Rock sits beside you like a boulder dog.
“Do they always do this???”
“Only on Wednesdays.”
Wonder of U tries to disguise itself as a harmless old man. You pet it anyway.
Gappy starts to get paranoid that every Stand is actually here for you and not him.
He comes home to find you mid-nap surrounded by Stands who look at him like a threat.
Secretly loves that his own Stand gets excited every time you coo at it.
Jodio Joestar
“BRO. BRO. BROOOOOO.”
“What?”
“THERE’S. STANDS. IN OUR YARD.”
You’re literally outside throwing frisbees and the Stands are playing like dogs at the park.
November Rain flops beside you like a wet sea lion. Jodio’s jaw drops.
“He’s not even that nice to me.”
Even Stands like Cat Size and Heaven’s Door show up. Some wear hats and fake mustaches like they’re in disguise. It’s pathetic.
Jodio’s first instinct is: can we profit off this
Second instinct: wait they’re more loyal to them than to me?? tf??
Eventually he just accepts that you’re like the ghost-whisperer-caregiver of Hawaii.
He follows you around like a bouncer while you feed evil Stands pastries. “You good bro? You got eyes on Bags Groove?”
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idanceuntilidie · 2 years ago
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What about yandere prince over his favorite knight? Male reader ofc :)
I am done I deserve mac n cheese and almonds
Hope this was okay.
Yandere Prince x male reader
tw: yandere themes and being held against will
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You were assigned to prince Charlie since you were little, so naturally you were very protective of him.
You two shared a very special bond of course, two best friends since childhood.
But for prince Charlie, it was oh, so much more. At first he didn’t understand it, you were there more often than not.
He remembers how often you clinged to him when you two were younger. You were supposed to be the one protecting him, he didn’t mind that.
As you two grew older, you got braver and stronger. You even spend less time with him. He noticed something was wrong with him.
An unknown feeling blossomed in his chest.
And you made it so much stronger.
It’s not really like you did anything special, you just,
existed.
He started to appreciate your existence more. How when you smiled your cheeks were dusted by pinkish colour and your eyes twinkled with such a happy flame.
How you wielded your sword and how brave you were.
He watched you, heart longing for you. For your little touches, your laughs.
Oh how he wishes you two were kids again, he would protect you from danger and you would cling to him and never let go.
You were so far away but at the same time so close. After a while, just watching wasn’t enough, he needed you back and he would do everything to make it happen.
You noticed a slight change in your environment.
It started small, maids, servants and other knights started to ignore you. They shook when they saw you and ran away.
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You weren’t a violent person, so you didn’t understand what was wrong.
It hurt slightly, but you can’t just go around crying. You were a royal knight after all.
Then Prince Charlie requested you must be near him at all times, you expected that since you were his personal knight,
no more strolls through the castle and gardens. No more training. You can’t leave him, not even to eat or sleep.
You feared the last one. You feared you might grow weak, but you can’t let your prince that so you stayed silent.
You didn’t dare to eat, drink or sleep in his presence, much to his dismay. You thought it was disrespectful to even do these things in his presence, EVEN if you two knew each other all your lives.
After some time your body could in fact, not take it anymore so you fainted.
You woke up not long after, laying on the comfiest bed you had ever felt. Stripped from your armour and chained to the bed. Your first thought was that someone broke in and hurt your prince, naturally, you began to struggle. Your body was weak due to the lack of food or sleep.
You didn’t notice your Prince walking cheerfully through the door.
“Oh you are up, how wonderful”
He chirped happily. Your tired eyes followed his figure.
“Your.. highness? What is the meaning of this?”
You asked, voice raspy. Swallowing hurt so much.
“Oh you had fainted my dear knight”
he hummed as he placed something on the table. You tried to move your arms, you felt weak. Chains only rattled quietly because of your movement, it caught Charlies attention.
“Don’t you dare to move y/n”
“Just, just take me to the doctor I will be fine in few days and-“
His pale face turned cherry red in anger.
“No! You are only allowed to see me, only me! I AM taking care of you now!”
His voice boomed loudly in your ears. You winced.
He turned away from you, trying to calm down, then took something from the table, a plate. Charlie walked to the bed, and placed the plate on a nightstand, so he could uncuff your hands.
Your body felt weak, you let him sit you up.
“Now, let me feed you yeah? You must be oh so hungry, and then we can spend some time together.”
he smiled, you were too weak to argue so he took your silence as an agreement. You prayed silently that this was just a dream.
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fallstaticexit · 9 months ago
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Prev / Next / Beginning / Pillowfort
AN: Just so no one is confused, I turned Summer Holiday into an official Landgraab. I needed another legendary blonde to play as Nancy’s yapping bougie cousin (her father’s niece) and she was casted immediately.
Transcript under the cut
Malcolm: [wails]
Geoffrey: [grumbles] I got ‘em.
Nancy: [yawns] I’ll get him. Need to feed him.
Geoffrey: [murmurs] Won’t fight you for it, dear.
Nancy: [snorts] Oh, I bet.
Nancy Narrates: [Malcolm was the polar opposite of Jonathan in every way. He cried relentlessly through the night. He could never keep anything down. His tiny body always wound so tightly]
Nancy: Ok, Malcolm. What would it take to for you to allow me one full night of sleep? That’s all I ask.
Malcolm: [grunts, hiccups]
Nancy: [softly] Oh, come on. What could possibly be so bad that you must cry like this?
Nancy Narrates: [Most nights, I cried with him, fearing he inherited my melancholy]
Malcolm: [whimpers softly]
Nancy: [sniffs] There. See? Calm. Easy. I know that’s asking alot, coming from me. We’ll get through this, together-
Jonathan: Mommy wahhh!
Malcolm: [cries]
Nancy: [sighs]
Nancy Narrates: [There was no time for tears, when they needed me to be stronger than that]
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Malcolm: [babbles]
Nancy: [gasps] Are you happy? Are you smiling at me?
Malcolm: [coos]
Nancy Narrates: [As I learned more about Malcolm, I began to notice just how alike we were. The same curious and thoughtful nature that was in his eyes was in mine too ]
Nancy: You’re so beautiful. Geoffrey, look! Malcolm is smiling!
Geoffrey: Of course he is! He loves looking at you. See, Nance? Things just take time. You’re doing great.
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Nancy Narrates: [And as I learned more about my sons, I was beginning to feel like I could be a mother they deserved]
Malcolm: [coos]
Jonathan: Hi Mommy!
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Summer: It’s so good to see you, cousin! You’ve been such a shut-in lately! And wow, you look amazing for having had two kids. Although... If you ever want a referral to my guy down in Del Sol Valley, he does wonders. You’d never believe I had a cesarean.
Nancy: Thank you, but I want to avoid going under the knife. I know that’s all the rave now.
Summer: Good for you, hon! Wow, he sure has a set of lungs on him!
Nancy: [sheepishly] He prefers me to hold him, it’s why I haven’t hired a nanny for the boys yet.
Summer: Not many women in your position take such attentive care of their children as you do, cuz. It’s admirable. I think you’re doing a wonderful job.
Nancy: You really think so?
Summer: Oh, of course! Look at me, for example. I’m the definition of a great mother. I raise my boys to be model citizens while my husband runs his own law firm.
Summer: If there was anyone that understands the sacrifices of being a mother, it’s me, Nancy. Landgraab women are built for it, believe it or not.
Nancy: I suppose that’s hard to believe at times considering my mother-
Summer: Oh. Well, Aunt Queenie isn’t a true Landgraab now, is she? She probably wishes she were you, Nancy.
Nancy: What?
Summer: You can’t compare a common woman who married into wealth to born royalty, cuz. Just saying.
Collin: Mom! Taylor pushed me in the mud!!
Taylor: I did not! He FELL!
Collin: No, you pushed me, dickhead!
Taylor: You’re the dickhead, loser!
Collin: SHUT THE HELL UP!
Summer: Ugh! The both of you, zip it! Maria! Maria!! The twins, por favor!
Summer: Summer: My god, I have to do everything! Nance, trust me, motherhood is a thankless job. It really is. My boys would be lost without me, you hear me? Yours are so lucky to have you. Nancy?
Nancy: [inhales sharply]
Nancy Narrates: [Don’t. Please don’t. I’ve worked so hard-]
Summer: [snaps fingers] Hello? Please clean this filthy child, Maria! Rápido! Anyway, what were we talking about?
-
[giggling]
Geoffrey: Then, the big dinosaur came and gobbled up all the little dinosaurs with his big, nasty dinosaurs teeth! Chomp chomp chomp!
Malcolm: [squeals]
Jonathan: He eat all of them, daddy?!
Geoffrey: Every. Single. Last. One!
Geoffrey: But then, the even bigger dinosaur came and ate him!
Malcolm: [gasps]
Jonathan: And then I eat him, Malcolm!
Malcolm: [giggles] Me too!
Geoffrey: Hey, save some dinosaurs for daddy!
Malcolm: Mama! Mama!
Jonathan: Hi Mommy! [whispers] Mommy can eat dinosaurs too, right? Even though she’s a girl?
Geoffrey: Everyone can eat them, especially mommies. [laughs] Hey, Nance. Rough night, huh? Come to bed. I’ll read another story.
Jonathan & Malcolm: YAY!
Nancy: What will you read us?
Geoffrey: How about I tell the story of the handsome king and his beautiful queen and their two silly, little princes?
Nancy: Does this story have a happy ending?
Geoffrey: [grins] It sure does.
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mangionebabymama · 2 months ago
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Imagine comforting him during pain flair ups, shushing his sobs and moans and rubbing his back. You feed him painkillers even though you both know it won't really help. I like to imagine him taking really strong edibles with a lot of cbd to help with the pain so he'll go from sobbing in pain to a lighter, happier mood and he'll be prone to giggling too and he finds everything you say really funny. In those times he'd definitely beg to eat your pussy, you'd be like noooo Luigi your back, he'd be like but you've been taking such good care of me, I want to show you I care too. He'd try to be all coy and seductive but he'd stutter or say something wrong because he'd be high as fuck and it would make him giggle at himself, but he'd be dead serious about eating your pussy. He'd definitely be really good at cunnilingus and fingering, he'd eat your pussy forever. It would be in part due to lot of guilt for having to be taken care of, that would make him insecure, and I think that would lead to him liking to be roughed up a bit during sex, he'd feel like he'd "deserve" it.
omg anon 😫 oh just to comfort him and tend to him, god I wish he had that support and love from somebody so bad you don’t understand omfg
Taking painkillers would only offer temporary relief bc something as chronic as his back pain and spinal condition can’t be cured with just a few pills. Both you and he know that it’s not a viable, long-term solution. Still, I know it would bring you some relief just to see him in better spirits, even if he’s the highest in the room, feeling like he’s floating among the spirits on the ceiling you can’t see once the edible kicks in. He’d start to feel so much better, not having to fully experience the excruciating pain he’s usually in. He could finally forget about the misery, at least for a little while. And he’d be sooooo appreciative and grateful for you; giggling at nearly everything you say and do, even if you’re just breathing, sitting there on the bed with him, blinking those fluttery eyelashes in that certain way. He’d feel completely blessed to be taken care of by the prettiest person ever (you), mesmerized by how lucky he is. He might even think to himself that maybe bad back spells aren’t so bad, if it means someone as fiiiiiiine as you is there to rub his back and dote on him and be his little nurse. oh he’d be off in la-la land 😭
So when he suddenly babbles, “Let me eat you out, baby,” you’d probably assume it’s just the edibles talking, him being goofy and horny like it’s no big deal. But he’d mean it. He’s always serious when it comes to eating you out. He doesn’t ever play around with pussy, especially not yours. That’s sacred business to him.
I can imagine, instead of crawling down to the edge of the bed (because you’d naturally worry about his back), he’d suggest something better: you sitting on his face. Not just because it’s easier on his body, but because he wants your pretty self right there on his face. It would be his idea of a five-course meal—served all at once. And when he starts eating you out while high, face smothered in your pussy and thighs and lost in you, it would be almost an out-of-body experience for you
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azsazz · 1 year ago
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Off Grid
Azriel x Reader [Formula One AU]
Summary: Ferrari has signed on rookie driver Dorian Havilliard. Azriel must learn to navigate the 2024 season with a new teammate and his secret relationship, with you, who just so happens to be the team’s media trainer.
Warnings: N/A
Word Count: 2,109
Notes: This one goes out to @moosemahboi for the ask this morning 😏 enjoy 😉 (idk why I can’t tag u but hopefully you see this)
Also, sorry if the formatting looks like shit I’m posting this from my phone. I busted this out so fast tho whoops
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��Azriel, how are you feeling knowing that Ferrari has signed young Dorian Havilliard for the 2024 season?” The reporter asks, sitting eagerly on the edge of his seat. He has his phone out, recording Azriel’s responses. The man has been hanging onto every word Azriel has said; him and the other thirty journalists eager to pester him, all cramped within the small room.
Beside him, Cassian snickers under his breath, all too obviously happy that he’s not the one who must suffer this torturous questioning. Azriel refrains from rolling his eyes at the absurdity of it all. Well, it’s not absurd but it feels like it because it’s been the only question anyone seems to care about right now, they no longer care to ask how the new chassis feels, what his thoughts are about the new Las Vegas race added to the schedule, how he’s projected to be one of the top drivers this season. Was supposed to be one of the top performing drivers of the season. Ever since Ferrari leaked that Dorian Havilliard is making his debut with the team for the first race, it’s been a feeding frenzy for the media, trying to be the first to glean insider information about the fresh meat.
“I think he’ll make a great addition to the team,” is all Azriel offers in response.
He’s hot and sweaty from practice and being blinded by flashes of cameras that don’t seem to be stopping anytime soon isn’t helping his mood in the slightest. It’s the part of his job that he despises the most. All Azriel wants to do is drive, because nothing feels as good as the adrenaline when he’s behind the wheel, but right now all he wants is to go home, not respond to million questions he’s already answered too many times before. And to be honest, he’s kind of pissed about Ferrari signing Dorian Havilliard and nixing Rowan Whitethorn, who has signed on to be McLaren’s first seat after Aedion Ashryver’s accident at the final race of the 2023 season that sent him into early retirement.
There’s a beat of silence, and when it’s clear he has nothing else to say about the matter, someone else pops up from their seat and another question is hurled his way. “And what about your former teammate, Rowan Whitethorn? How is he taking the news of losing his seat to Havilliard?”
The urge to roll his eyes into his fucking skull is so great he almost doesn’t stop it, but the last thing he needs is the team’s media trainer on his case about the appropriate ways to conduct himself during media panels, no matter how pretty she is.
They should be asking this question to Rowan or even Dorian, whenever he begins press for the upcoming season.
“Rowan understands,” he tries to hide the sour tone in his voice. Azriel and Rowan have been driving together for the past three seasons and it’s been one of the best experiences he’s had with a teammate in Formula 1. He knows the constructors are too worried about placing him on the same team as Rhysand or Cassian, who he grew up with at karting school. They’re like brothers and they act like it too, but if they were on the same team the rivalries would feel even more drastic than they already are. “He’s a good driver and talent like his isn’t going away anytime soon.”
Rowan’s new teammate, Hunt Athalar, nods from Azriel’s other side. He and Cassian seem to be enjoying not being pestered with surface-level questions, and Azriel wishes that he was feeling the same.
With a few more unnecessary queries about Dorian, press finally ends. He, Hunt, and Cassian are escorted from the room, the trail of flashes and conversation starting up clinging to his back as he walks.
“Fucking hell,” Azriel mutters to Cassian, who jabs him in the side with a snigger once they’re cleared the room, the door shutting with a loud click behind them. “I hate these interviews.”
“Don’t need to tell me that, mate,” he laughs wholeheartedly, and Azriel glares. “I’m pretty sure everyone can tell. Might want to learn to act like you like it, though. Ferrari won’t keep you if your attitude sucks. But I’m sure that media trainer of yours is about to hunt you down and tell you the same thing.”
Azriel frowns. He thought he’d done a pretty good job at deflecting the questions about his new teammate.
“People like me for me,” Azriel shrugs, defending himself. He’s never been a bullshitter, no matter how badly his team has wanted him to be. This is what the people get, 100% Azriel, take it or leave it. And Ferrari has decided to take it, for the last three seasons. The second half of his sentence is drowned out as Cassian’s snickering becomes full-bodied laughter. “And my trophies speak for themselves.” He doesn’t mean to come off as cocky, but he’d rather be authentically himself than a puppet to the media.
Cassian shakes his head, wiping the nonexistent tears from the corners of his eyes. “No, people like me for me,” he winks at Azriel’s glare. “They like you because you’re a decent driver.”
Azriel’s nose crinkles. “Decent? My car is projected to perform even better than Rhys’ this year!”
They three drivers turn down a hall, nodding to the two Haas drivers they pass: Bron and Hart.
“We’ll see, won’t we, Athalar?” Cassian cranes his neck around Azriel, directing the question to the silent driver on his other side. Hunt and Azriel have never been close, but the angel of McLaren offers a genuine smile in response.
“Should be a good season, boys.” Azriel and Cassian share a look. A perfect media-trained answer, Hunt gave. The other driver turns off down another hall, “See you later.”
“What a weirdo,” Cassian mutters once Hunt has disappeared from sight. “Good luck to Ro, having to deal with that.”
Azriel finally rolls his eyes like he’s been wanting to do since he left the press room. “Yeah, and I’m the asshole.”
Cassian huffs and the pair of drivers stop at the end of the hall where it splits to go to their respective driver rooms.
“I’ll see you later, man.”
“Hopefully in a better mood, Azzy,” Cassian chuckles and dips down the hall before Azriel can toss another glare or remark at him.
Shaking his head, Azriel returns to his driver room. He’s going to grab his things and get the fuck out of here, because relaxing at his hotel sounds much better than waiting around here any longer.
A knock on the door interrupts his actions, and Azriel wonders why the Mother fails to grace him with one sliver of luck today.
“Come in,” he grunts, snagging his water from where he left it on top of the desk.
You enter the room with your phone and clipboard in your hands. You’re typing on your phone, fingers flying across the screen as you reply to another email. The water does nothing to quench Azriel’s suddenly dry throat.
He can’t help the way his eyes drag down your body with your attention on your phone, drinking in the sight of you in your pressed pants and professional button up shirt. There’s a lanyard around your neck with your Ferrari employee access printed on it and he wants to wrap his fist around the strap and—
Wherever his mind was drifting off to is completely shattered by your piercing eyes. He hasn’t had enough time to prepare for your apparent annoyance at his attitude during the press conference. You don’t look happy, and neither is his name as it rolls from your lips in a disappointed manner. “Azriel.” You step further into the room. “What the hell was that out there? You know you can’t—”
Your rant is cut off as Azriel consumes the space between you in two long strides, leaning in to slant his lips over yours, eating up your words. You can’t help but to melt into it a little, a lot when his tongue traces the seam of your lips and you part for him, brushing up against your tongue in a sensual move.
When he straightens, you’re panting and a bit flushed. Arousal burns through your body like petrol on the track, but you steel yourself against that fire in his eyes, all ready to light you up.
“Not even going to say hello before you start in on me?” Azriel asks, licking his lips. Your eyes follow the motion, and he smirks. The way his body is pressed up against yours and the firm grip of his hands on your hips threatens to distract you further, especially when his red racing suit is slung around his waist, leaving him in that tight, black long sleeve that contours around his lithe body perfectly.
“No,” you agree, and he frowns. “I’m upset with you.”
“Was it something I said?” He cringes at his own lame attempt at a joke, ducking from your serious gaze. “‘M sorry, I’m just sick of all the Dorian questions. They’re not asking anything about the season or the car, only how I feel about a rookie taking Rowan’s seat.”
You ache for him, you really do, but things like this happen in the sport and he’s been in it long enough now that Azriel should know better than to act like this. You can admit, Rowan had been an asset to Ferrari and to Azriel, wriggling his way under the stoic driver’s skin like a worm, burrowing deep into his heart.
“Az, you need to stop playing it like Dorian took his seat on purpose,” you console gently, “We both know that it was Rowan’s time, and he couldn’t resist what McLaren might’ve proposed.”
“I know, I know,” Azriel replies unhappily, retreating to perch on the arm of the small couch. He can accept it, but he doesn’t like it, preferring to blame the new driver instead. “I don’t want to deal with that little punk,” he groans, because the thought of putting up with a cocksure rookie tires him. “Coming in here thinking he owns the damn place.”
“Azriel,” you tut, rolling your eyes. You put a hand on your hip. “That was literally you four years ago.”
“It’s different,” he mutters, but you both know that it’s not.
You abandon your phone and clipboard on the desk in the room before standing between his parted thighs and wrapping your arms around his neck. His damp hair is slicked back but a strand falls across his forehead and he looks really good like this, head tilted upwards, gold eyes painted with false innocence.
“Why don’t you, instead of being Dorian’s enemy, you become his ally?” You ask softly, fingering the hairs at the nape of his neck.
“Because that’s not how the team works, baby,” Azriel sighs, enjoying the way you’re scratching his skin. He wants to lean forward and rest his head in the crook of your neck, maybe take a cat nap or nip at the skin there. “We might drive for the same team, but I’m not looking to be the supporting driver.”
Fuck that. There’s no way he’s letting a rookie take his seat when he’s worked his ass off since he received it. He’s been driving for Ferrari since he first got an in the sport, four years ago. He fought tooth and nail to work up from second seat to first, and Azriel will be damned if Dorian rips it from under him in one season.
“Your jealousy is showing,” you tease your boyfriend a little, poking him on the nose. You know you shouldn’t be doing this, hanging all over each other when anyone could walk into the room, but you can’t resist your draw to Azriel. “It’s not as endearing as it is when you’re jealous that I’m talking to one of the engineers.”
“Don’t remind me,” Azriel grunts, eyes hardening a little. “You’re mine and I don’t like to share.”
You snort, “That much is clear, babe,” you step out of his arms and miss the heat of his body already. You collect your things from the desk and return to him for a quick kiss. You shoot him a final knowing look, dodging his attempts at capturing you against his chest again. “Work on it, Azriel. I mean it.”
He salutes you as you open the door to slip out. “Yes ma’am.”
It shuts quietly behind you and Azriel slumps back onto the couch, sighing.
It’s going to be a long season.
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@iambored24601 @secretlyhers @kylaisra @daily-dose-of-sass wasn’t sure but figured u might want to see this one 😅
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starcrossedslytherin · 1 year ago
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Love Letters
Sebastian Sallow x Reader
WC: 1K
A/N: I don’t know how popular the Hogwarts legacy fandom is as of now because I’ve not been on tumblr, but I found this fic in my drafts(along with quite a few wips) and realized I never posted it so I thought I would feed the Sallow girlies a quick snack today.
Summary: Sebastian wants to write you a love letter to tell you about his feelings but it’s not going the way he hoped, even with Ominis’ help.
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Ominis knows he shouldn’t be as amused as he is right now, but he can’t help it. It’s not often he gets to experience Sebastian embarrass himself so willingly.
Try as he does to suppress his chuckle, it slips out and Sebastian sighs, letting the several half written love notes spill onto the table in front of him.
“It’s not funny.” Sebastian practically pouts, glad his friend can’t see the expression on his face.
“I disagree.” Ominis taunts him with a grin, leaning back in his seat.
“I’ve been trying to write Y/N a note all afternoon! I just don’t understand why they sound so…”
“Awful?” Ominis jumps in. “Horrendous? Painfully cliche?”
“Oi, shut it.” Sebastian mutters, gently nudging Ominis’ foot under the table. He very much regrets asking his best friend for help now he knows how embarrassed he’d be.
He sighs before picking up all his papers, trying to find the best parts of them all. “Why don’t you read them again? Out loud, so I can hear.” Sebastian doesn’t see why Ominis asks him to do so, but he reads through the notes, pulling faces every time he gets to a rather cheesy part of the note.
When he finishes, he looks to Ominis, hoping he can give him any sort of feedback to fix this mess.
Ominis stays quiet for a moment, thinking Merlin only knows what until he says, “You make me wish I was deaf as well.”
Sebastian’s hands slap against the table as he gives up, annoyed with his inability to string together simple words to tell you how he feels and annoyed with Ominis’ lack of help. “Forget this.” Sebastian grumbles, crumpling up as many of the letters as he can.
Ominis sighs and puts his hand across the table, covering some of the papers and getting Sebastian to stop. “Just talk to her. Tell her how you feel.”
Sebastian pulls a face at the recommendation. “Tell her how I feel?” He repeats, starting to pace in his spot. “You mean, just walk up to her and tell her how beautiful I think she is? Or how any time she smiles at me, you, Anne or anything really, I can’t help but stare? How she is most likely the smartest and kindest person I have ever met? How anytime she’s in the room, I am most certain my heart will beat out of my chest with how fast she makes it? How each time I see her leave the castle on her little adventures, I fight myself on whether to go with because I need to know that she makes it back safe to me? To us? You think I should just walk right up to Y/N and tell I am absolutely in love with her?”
There was silence between the two boys after Sebastian’s speech and the brunette boy, exhausted mentally, falls in his seat in a slump. Ominis just sat there, gripping his wand tight in his hand as his lips gently pull up to the left. “Well,” he whispers, getting Sebastian’s attention, who frowns upon seeing his smirk, “I don’t think you have to worry about it anymore.”
Sebastian’s brows furrow and he was about to ask Ominis what he meant before the sound of a book clattering to the ground behind him has him whipping his hand around and he opens his eyes wide. There you were, frozen in your place as you struggle to keep more books from falling off the shelves.
“Sorry.” You mumble, trying to determine if you really were hearing what you think you were hearing. “And uh, sorry, I didn’t mean to- I wasn’t trying to eavesdrop.
Sebastian nods at your reassurance. “How much did you hear?”
You wave your hand in the air. “Oh, well just, uh, just… everything.”
Well, that’s not what he wanted.
He turned to glare at Ominis, but the boy slipped out when you and Sebastian were focused on each other.
You glance down at the paper strewn across the table, ready to dismiss them before seeing your name on one of them. “What is that?”
Sebastian sighs, debating whether he could really show you his mess of notes. He nods, letting you fall into the seat next to him as you pick through the papers. You barely got through the first sentence of the very first letter before your eyes shoot to Sebastian’s.
“You.. you wrote me letters?” There was a deep blush on his face and he’d gone silent, but he nods. You stare at him, feeling your own cheeks heat up quite a bit before you turn back and read, picking a few sentences of each discarded letter. Your favorite ones were the ones Sebastian had scratched over with his quill, obviously being embarrassed of having written them, but you enjoyed them.
From the first moment we met, I knew there was something extraordinary about you.
I know what love is because I know you.
My darling, you are my rock, my confident, my ally, my friend, and so much more.
“Bash…” you mumble, blinking repeatedly to keep your tears from spilling out.
“I couldn’t find the right words.” He whispers, picking up a few of the letters and holding them. “I had Ominis try to help me, but I don’t think he was particularly helpful.” You chuckle, imagining Ominis trying to help Sebastian.
Your laugh fades out as you put your hands on top of Sebastian’s and your eyes meet. Your stomach flutters with nerves and adoration. “I think you know the right words.”
Sebastian smiles at you, the corners of his mouth tugging up just enough that his eyes crinkle and he nods. “Y/N,” he begins, looking to his letters for strength but he knows he doesn’t need it. “Y/N, I love you. I’m in love with you. I want to be with you and I want to go on adventures with you and I want to smile with you and I want, I just want you.” His hand cups your cheek, bringing you closer to him as your eyes flutter close and he whispers, one last time before your lips meet, “I love you.”
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loganhowlettshousewife · 7 months ago
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hi, i absolutely love your animal series and can not wait to read all of your diversity december fics but especially the one about an autistic reader! if it's something you'd like to write and/or something that you have the time to fit in would you consider writing a logan x autistic!reader who is having one of those days where their taste buds are all out of whack and he is trying so hard to find something that you can eat because he refuses to let you go to bed without food. maybe a bit of trial and error in their too, like he makes you something but you just can't eat it and expect him to get mad but he's so nice and gentle about it. thanks and don't worry if not 💛
logan howlett x autistic!reader
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you may have a meltdown if this day gets any worse. all you want is to go to bed, to shut your eyes to the too-bright lights and fall into a slumber where you don’t have to deal with the buzzing under your skin. tomorrow you’ll wake up feeling marginally better, and you’ll move on as you always do.
but logan’s protective, obsessive about taking care of you, and refuses to let you go to bed without eating. usually it’s nice to have someone like him around, helpful when you’re often forgetting to take care of yourself in such ways, and it’s likely that tomorrow you’ll be grateful to him for feeding you, but right now you’re just tired and overstimulated.
nothing tastes right, your taste buds are all out of whack, and no matter what he makes you, you’re pretty sure it will only make you feel worse. even some of your safe foods aren’t sounding very safe food-y at the moment.
he’s wrapped a weighted blanket around you, turned the lights off in your shared room so that the only illumination comes from the open window, the golden glow of the setting sun. you focus on your breathing, in and out, the texture and weight of the blanket, the rocking motion of your body, back and forth.
there’s a quiet knock on your door, logan letting you know he’s returned, making sure he doesn’t catch you off guard when you’re in this state. he enters with a plate of food, one of your safe foods, and yet when you have the plate in your hands, when you have a forkful of food in your mouth, all you can feel is nausea crawling up your esophagus.
“i can’t,” you choke out, pushing it back into his hands, swallowing against the lump in your throat and pressure in your chest, “just let me sleep. i’ll be better tomorrow.”
he stands by your bedside but doesn’t come any closer, allowing you full control of the situation, letting you decide what kind of proximity you can handle right now. his eyes are so gentle, so understanding, and the kindness he affords you only makes you feel worse.
you wish he would shout at you, call you impossible the way your parents did, throw his hands in the air and tell you to deal with it yourself if you’re going to be difficult. his reactions are an unknown in a world that you thought you finally understood, and it scares you sometimes, how easily he breaks through your walls with his helpful nature and quiet admittances of somewhat understanding the way you’re feeling.
“you can’t go to bed without food,” he says, as if he doesn’t do it all the time. but he wants you to be healthy, never wants you to imitate his bad habits.
tears prick at your eyes, frustration rising in your chest, anger at yourself and at him and at the world and at your brain for being the way it is. he catches your hands before you can bury them into the skin of your arms, nails digging into the flesh, the only way you’re able to let out the volatile energy coursing through you.
“i’ll eat this, you don’t have to,” he continues, his thumb rubbing over your knuckles, “just tell me something you think you can eat. anything. it doesn’t have to be big or a full meal. and i’ll go make it for you.”
he’s too gentle with you, too kind, too understanding. it’s something you never thought you’d find in a relationship, not when you’ve been told your entire life that it’s too difficult to deal with your issues. but if logan’s willing to put in the effort, you tell yourself that you’ll try too, push yourself to be the person he thinks you can be.
so you let your head fall into his chest. he doesn’t touch you, doesn’t push your boundaries any further, just lets you rest there while you think, while you cycle through all your safe foods to find the least offensive of them. and when you whisper it against the soft, worn material of his shirt, he smiles down at you and says, “okay.”
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diversity december taglist: @raeinyourdreams @meetmypointlessaddiction @chubbyhedgehog @yxtkiwiyxt @isepod @dis-plus-fanfic-reblog-writes @deaky-with-a-c
autistic!reader: @thegothempress @z0m3r-blud @yourlocalmerchgirl
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magnoliaswriteatsunset · 3 months ago
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You know, I was reading some non-mc x Sylus’s fics just now and a thought occurred to me. I was wondering how Rafayel would react if the player behind the screen suddenly appeared one day in front of him. Would he turn away? Leave them? Help them? Suspect they’re a threat?
I can’t help but think that if, at some point in knowing each other, the Player opens up about missing their world, their loved ones, Rafayel would understand that grief and longing better than anyone. Though the situation is different, vastly different, I feel like he’d have a better understanding of what that feels like than anyone else Player could ever talk to.
Maybe they would cry silently, wondering if the day they ever get to see home again will ever come. That maybe they will never get to see their loved ones again.
Maybe they would cry and sob and scream as their heart shatters and aches. Tearing itself apart at being separated from all that is familiar. All that they know.
Perhaps he hears their cries. Their screams in agony. Their pain. Everything. He stands there. Unable to move. To choose. To comfort this person who seems to know him in ways he never thought a stranger would. Or to leave this unknown stranger in their emotions, knowing he could never hope to provide what they need most. A world that is familiar. A world that they love. A world they are not alone in.
Maybe he starts walking. Walking to his canvas. To his paints and brushes. And tries to recreate this world they’ve told him about. This place he can only imagine and dream of. A place that resides within a memory not his own.
Perhaps he works, for hours and minutes, as days stretch into weeks. He asks more about their world. The place they come from. The place they consider home. The people they feel at home with. The things and items that hold significance to them. The colors and smells that bring nostalgic memories and tears to their eyes.
He doesn’t know them. Doesn’t need to. But something in his chest twisted and ached when he heard their cries. Their wails. Their sobs and screams as they tried desperately, begged even, for a way to get home. He has no obligation to them. No reason to have to do this for them. Maybe it’s just his way of soothing his own guilt. His own feelings of loss at the people and home he lives with. The one he left for a love that has his heart. And always will.
Perhaps something resonated in him. The feelings they felt reaching into his heart and cracking a part of him that never quite healed. Letting the wound grow deeper as though a knife was pushed in further.
Maybe thats why he did it. Got to know them. Their home. Their loves. Their memories. Their heart. Them.
And as time moved forward and they made a place for themself in his world. In Linkon. Somewhere he isn’t sure he wants to acknowledge. The painting shifts. It’s no longer just the world they described to him. The world they miss. There are new things in it now. Familiar things.
Perhaps a building looks similar to the cafe they frequent. A cat with a familiar likeness to the one they feed by the convenience store. A person who has slightly purple hair and a mischievous smile. And the person in middle of it all. The one with a smile that seems too sad yet still holds a resoluteness in its curves. A hope and strength that refuses to leave, even as the look in their eyes begs for peace. A determination and fire that seems to show in their posture. Sitting in the middle of it all, the light shines on their face. A faraway look in their expression. One of contemplation but also one of hopefulness. Of a better and brighter future. One where the pain doesn’t hurt as much as it did before. One where the two worlds inhabiting their memories and heart no longer have to be separate. A wish to be able to live in the two worlds that hold their heart. A promise to try and love both as they live in one or the other. A vow to cherish the time spent with each as they live and love with everything they’ve got.
And when he shows them the painting. The one he’s worked on for months. He hopes with more of himself than he might admit, that their wish will come true. That they will no longer ache for a home too far away. Or for family and friends they can no longer see. So he hopes, holding that hope so deeply, so gently, with so much of it in his heart, that he might have a place in their’s too. That their worlds can be one. Their hopes and dreams. Their lives and homes. Their loves and hearts.
He loves them. And it breaks him to know they might not live with him long enough for him to be the home they so desperately crave.
He has lived and lost too many times. And from where he stands, this may very well be another love he is destined to lose. And they may never come back. Not in the way he knows. Not in a way he can follow. Not unless he leaves behind everything he knows, his home. Not unless their worlds let them cross so they may never be apart. Not unless he chooses them and they choose him in return.
For all it’s worth. He will always love them. And he will never let them be forgotten or erased.
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Feel free to take this idea and run with it. I do not have the emotional capacity to run with this any farther lest I break my heart irreversibly. Just tag me if you do. I would very much like to see what you write. Anyways. Might delete this later because I’m writing this while I’m sad and tired. Happy (angsty?) writing, everyone! Good night.
(I am so sorry Rafayel I love you so much but the angst needs an out and it wants to hurt me. My depression now has a weapon and they are swinging wildly. Forgive me. It’s a double edged sword. And I am afraid there will be people caught in this crossfire. I hope everyone who struggles knows it’s okay to hurt. But that even though it hurts, keep going. You made it through before. You can make it through now. If you would like a hand to hold, for supper or warmth, feel free to stay here a while. My other blog is meant for good vibes and relaxing places. @magnoliasbloomatsunset )
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starlightshadowsworld · 3 months ago
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Concept: Atsushi with looser morals.
Atsushi was raised in an environment where the kind die first. A place where he was taught the only person you can trust is yourself.
Atsushi learned how to survive a point system that never rewarded him. He would do other kids chores, take their punishments in exchange for food.
He was raised in hell and it meant that he learned to survive by any means necessary.
Atsushi stops Junichiro and passes his entrance exam because Dazai and Kunikida were kind to him. They gave him food, shelter and saved him when no one else ever has.
He doesn’t get involved until they’re put in danger. In his eyes he was paying them back for it and the job was completely unexpected.
Obviously Atsushi accepts because where else was he gonna go with no qualifications and an ability he can’t control.
He does pay Kunikida back for the 30 bowls of tea on rice even if the other says he doesn’t need too.
As if not paying his debts ever felt like an option to him.
Atsushi doesn’t think he’s a good person. He follows the law because the Agency (sometimes) does. He helps protect the city because the Agency does.
And working with the Agency gives him shelter and money so that he can eat and thus live.
Atsushi doesn’t think he belongs with them. He’s a coward and in the end he only really looks out for himself. In his eyes he’s not a good person.
Definitely not someone worth their kindness nor their belief and trust.
When the Port Mafia comes for his bounty he runs off without a second thought. He only comes back because Kunikida calls him to come help with the clean up.
Atsushi just silently sweeps up debris dodging the questions demanding to know where he was.
He doesn’t get why they don’t just sell him out. Sure they can clearly handle the Port Mafia but the bounty would be useful to them all.
It’s not like he’s worth keeping around. Certainly not for Dazai to let himself get kidnapped for.
He’s just another ungrateful mouth to feed as the Heasmaster would call him.
And he’s not wrong because Atsushis whole life has been spent trying to survive to his next day that actually being able to live his life feels weird to him.
He doesn’t really know how too. He had no dreams ot aspirations. He never thought he’d live long enough to escape the orphanage.
Maybe he should just hand himself over? Take the cash and dip while the others use his wage for something far more useful.
Maybe find someone worth keeping around.
But Atsushi doesn’t.
Because as times go on he starts to realise that not only does the Agency care about him. But that he cares for them too.
He likes watching Dazai and Kunikida bicker. He feels a sense of comfort when Yosano asks if he’s okay. When Ranpo tells him that he did a good job.
But the real kicker is when Atsushi meets Kyouka because all his instincts scream that he should run.
But he doesn’t.
Because Yosano is counting on him to protect the trains civilians. And he doesn’t want to let her down.
Kyouka Izumi is not a civilian.
Kyouka Izumi has a bomb strapped to her chest and has killed 35 people and will probably kill him too.
The Agency might be disappointed if he took her out but they’d understand.
But Atsushi has no reason to save her, for god’s sake he can’t even save himself how can he possibly help her?
So why does he look into her eyes and see himself. He sees a survivor, he sees someone who won’t fight him back because living was never an option for her.
Well who decides that?
Who decides whether or not if a person deserves to live or die? He didn’t think he deserved too and yet he was saved.
To live your whole life thinking such a thing…isn’t living at all. Atsushi wouldn’t wish such a thing even on his worst enemy.
“I don’t want to kill anyone else”
He moves without a second thought and the next thing he knows is he’s in the Agencies infirmary.
“Why did you bring her here?”
“I don’t know! Because you told me that we help people. And she…she needed help.”
He can barely understand it himself and yet the look Kunikida gives him is both exasperated and proud.
“So you finally admit it then. Hmm, I’ll speak to the President and we’ll go from there.”
“Admit what?”
“That you’re a member of the Armed Detective Agency. You’ve finally accepted that you’re one of us.”
Oh.
Oh he did, didn’t he?
And it felt right.
And so Atsushi makes himself a promise.
That if the Agency wants him to be kind then he’ll be kind. If the Agency wants him to fight then he’ll give it everything he’s got.
If the Agency wants him to sacrifice his life he’ll do so without question.
Because Atsushi doesn’t know how to live for himself so he’ll live for them.
And if they care for this city and all those within it then he’ll treasure it.
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izumiphoenix · 1 month ago
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Vampire Bite
I’ve still been thinking about those two posts (this and this) I saw a while ago, from @litsenn and @michanvalentine – sorry it’s not a reblog, but I wanted to include both somehow. These were discussions around how Astarion’s feeding is more than just about blood – it can be interpreted as intimate, even sensual.
Looking back, I absolutely agree that the best, healthiest option for Astarion is to let him feed on enemies. I replayed that conversation and paid closer attention to his reactions, and now it’s clear to me why the only option he truly approves of is that one. It’s not just about practicality – it’s about consent, boundaries, and reclaiming his autonomy after two centuries of having none.
Honestly, it bothered me a little that I didn’t realize this sooner. The dialogue line makes it sound like you’re offering him your blood in addition to enemy blood, which feels kind and supportive, but that’s not how it lands for Astarion. And I understand that better now.
Another thing I hadn’t realized until reading others’ interpretations is how a vampire’s bite can be perceived as sensual or intimate. In my mind, offering my blood felt more like a "sacrifice" – something I’d endure because I cared, not something I’d want or enjoy.
For me, the idea of someone biting into my neck, drawing blood while holding me close, is honestly a little scary – physically, because it seems rather painful, but also emotionally, too. I’m not someone who naturally seeks physical closeness, to be honest. Even with people I like or trust, touch can sometimes feel overwhelming, especially when I’m tired, overstimulated, or just need space. There’s a part of me that wants connection, but another part that somehow resists it. It’s a strange balance that’s hard to explain. (And yes, even if my Tav had already spent the night with him, it’s not difficult to imagine sex as something enjoyable between them, but the idea of a bite to the neck was something my imagination definitely approached with caution 😅)
And then there’s the aftermath: waking up the next day feeling drained, dizzy, distracted. That -1 on all dice rolls isn’t just a game mechanic – it also helps us imagine how it feels (It honestly reminds me of when I forget to take iron supplements for a while haha)
When Araj said she’d dreamed of being bitten by a vampire, I was honestly surprised. That fantasy felt so far from how I would react. And at the time, I thought Astarion was caught off guard too, judging from his reaction. Now I realize he does mention that a vampire bite is considered highly desirable, but I must have missed that line in my first playthrough or maybe didn't pay enough attention.
So yes, while I do feel a little guilty for missing that subtext at first, I also understand now why I did. On a first playthrough, the player can’t know his story yet, and I am sure most people act from good intentions. They’re both still figuring things out at that point.
I do wish there were an option to say something like “I’m here if there’s no other choice” without making him feel like it’s a transaction or crossing a line he’s not ready for. But going along with his suggestion and letting him choose how, when and from whom he feeds is – now – clearly the best option. Because Astarion wants to be free and independent, and he doesn’t want to be seen as someone’s fantasy, or reduced to the trope of a seductive vampire from romance stories – he wants to be seen for who he really is.
I mostly wrote this to clear my own head, but also to maybe offer another perspective – one where some parts of this story can feel surprising, depending on your personal experiences and comfort with certain things.
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